As the title of this journal says, I'm still feeling depressed about what happened a while ago.
Its affected me to the point where I just can't get the same amount of enjoyment out of games and other things as I did before that dreadful event
While I may be enjoying them, my mind is still constantly going back to that whole thing and I just feel so damned tired and depressed.....
I never really experienced anything like this back when I was a kid, the closest thing was this one guy I used to be pals with in high school, he stole some Original Xbox games from me when I told him, one of the times he was visiting me, that I would no longer lend out games due to some prior events where other guys at the school had borrowed games from me and been avoiding me when I was asking to have the games back.
I was angry at that time, not really saddened since I hadn't known him for as long, the guy had quite the history of making up things as he claims he once had been locked out of his house for a whole night and that his parents didn't hear him at all when he banged on the front door and that one time when the local military had a Regementets Dag, a sort of open event for civilians to come and look at the military and even ride in their vehicles alongside soldiers, they opened fire while he was with some soldiers in a tank.
My mom had been quick to point out to him that they would not do something like that since she had gone to the same kind of event with her father, who was in the military himself, and they have strict rules about that sort of thing, he had gotten a bit peeved at that point if I recall right when my mom said that.
But anyway, I'm really not feeling mentally well, its not suicidal thoughts or anything, just this really intense sadness that won't let go.